Frustration

Argh, sorry for some vent x.x I just feel so utterly fucking frustrated lately

Somewhat-of-an-explanation ~
Well, since things with Mark went south, my life has been rather tense, chaotic and at some points distressing I've had moments where I just felt like giving up on everything: My animations, my future career, every having a relationship again ect.
Plus, I'm about to enter 2 of the hardest school years of my life for possibly the most important exams I will ever take (aside from Uni anuals and entrance exams) in the form of my A-levels, and my adult-hood is rapidly approaching and becoming a reality, and it's horrifyingly scary x.x I'll have to work so hard and I'm worried my life will be taken over by the need to do well I have to prove myself in my subjects as well as work experiance for me to even be CONSIDERED for an interview for University; I want to become a Vet so badly and I'm so close I can almost taste it! It's just so so difficult x.x
Add to this shambles of stress a nice little bit of man trouble x.x
Yep. There is this guy, and yes, I think he's lovely... but I have no idea what he thinks about me, weather he likes me or not, if he likes hanging around with me or if he likes me at all, it's so so FUCKING ARGH! It's giving my stomach cramps x.x
I know it's been too soon after Mark, and I don't think i could be bothered with an actual relationship for several months... but he's... I... *sigh* I'm scared I'll never get him either...

So sorry for this rantathon and bothering you all with a crappy anatomically incorrect cat with some sterotypical ranting text floating over the top and a cheap lazy background, but right now, I have such a huge knot in my stomach over everything, people could hit me with a lead hammer and it would only be a little addition to this list, and much more I'd rather not share with anyone x.x

Sorry.

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